03.10.25

On my drive - I had already made up my mind. 

Today, I was going to rest.

I still needed to go to the gym as this is non-negotiable but once I got home, the plan was to get into the nice, soft, clean sheets on our bed and catch up on the sleep that I missed out on the night before. 

I got home just after 7:00 PM. 

I fed my wife, fed the dog, made a couple of protein shakes, changed and head right back out the door. 

I don’t know if it’s the steering wheel or the seat but driving sucks the life out of me. I could be full of energy the moment that I get into the car but by the time I am 15-30 minutes down the road, the life is sucked out of me. 

This is what had happened to me on the drive home and I could feel it happening on the drive to the gym too. 

Thoughts were creeping up that I wasn’t going to have a good session but I was also excited as some new straps had just come in and I was looking forward to seeing how this would help me improve my lifts. 

The disappointment hit that I wasn’t going to be able to use them for another three days because I had already done my pull day to start the week. 

Walking into the gym helped me crush all of the feelings from the last couple of hours. I don’t know if it’s the new lighting the just installed or my determination to get better but I could feel more pep in my step the moment that I got into the gym. 

With my step goal, I have this new habit of pacing around the gym. Having previously worked out with college athletes, I’m accustomed to being able to watch other people work out at the gym but that doesn’t seem socially acceptable outside of that setting so, I make use of the time and walk. 

Back and forth back and forth. I do this almost every set as I have been taught to hate the concept of sitting in the gym from my coaches. 

Somewhere in all of this pacing - I made up my mind again. 

I was going to go home, make a video, post that video, and type up this post. 

I don’t know if it was something that Will Smith said to me - well… and to all of the other people that bought his book on Audible - but I knew that if I wanted to fall into the same damn routine that I have fallen into in the past, I would go home and go to bed. 

No. 

I can’t do that to myself again. This is my life. A couple more hours of effort isn’t going to kill me. Hell, I started my day late and I can’t sacrifice my personal goals and prioritize my work over my life. 

So here I am. Talking to you. 

But mainly, talking to myself. I doubt that you are reading this early in its writing. It’s rare to find a random person on the internet that you resonate with randomly when they have done little to market themselves or optimize their content. 

I know that at the end of the day - my largest audience is me. But that is the only person that I am worried about letting down, again. 

So here’s to us. 

Here’s to you for scouring my portfolio of content and finding this piece. 

And here’s to me for writing it. 

Cheers.